Tuesday, November 17, 2009

GUILT

I don't know why I am feeling guilty all of a sudden for not keeping up my blog, even though I have been back from my trip back home for a little over three weeks. I am back to my normal routine, getting ready for the cold, no snow yet (thanks god ) but still quite cold, back to work and the daily grind of working away at your desk. Having to leave the house at 7:20 a.m when it is still dark and returning home between 5:30 and 6:00 when it's dark again, but I have managed to overcome this feeling of darkness by looking forward to spring and summer which is quite beautiful here in the prairies.
My eldest son is still giving me grief by not wanting to keep up with his schooling and I am trying not to give up on him. I know that he does not realise that what he is doing will affect all his life for the next coming 50 years or so, he is still too young to comprehend that the bad choices we make early in life and which appear simple when we are young will actually be what we live in our future . I am trying to make him see that what he is doing is not right and that he has no right to give up his education just because he doesn't feel like studying. My boss told me to take my son for a drive in what is known as BUM town here, and let him see for himself what the bad choices can lead to, or else to threaten him that if he doesn't continue his school I will throw him out. Of course throwing him out is not even an option, I dont think I as a mother can actually do it , because I think that for someone who has been coveted all his life, to find that kind of freedom it will just make him loose whatever last bit of mind he has. I have told him repeatedly that I understand that as a young man he needs to feel independent, but even in independence we have rights and obligations but of course I think he is just standing there without even listening to what I say, but I have to keep on trying.
Hopefully, he will come to his senses when it is not too late.

4 comments:

  1. As a mother of 4 , with 2 of them men , all I can say is good luck ! no matter what , don't give up .Hope you had a lovely EId . we could use some of your cold weather here in Tripoli , lol .

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  2. I would do anything for some cold weather right now. It's good to see you blogging again!!

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  3. Just don't give up on him, try to do things with him alone without his siblings, a whole day with him. I try to do it with my own kids. I don't know how old he is, a 2 weeks vacation with him, just you and him "no gadgets for him", you will get bonded stronger, you will know each other better, show him your wild side of you which doesn't know, that his mother is Kool, my own kids don't believe anything when I tell them about their mother before they were born, they all think of her that she is strict, always mad, never saw her funny, happy, adventurous character before marriage, they think I am lying. Show him whom you are in reality. My two girls are growing up, literally I had to text them last week end that I would love to take them to Avatar with their brother and hope they don't disappoint me, we did go together at 11 PM and came out 2 AM in the morning, my son came out happy who did not want to go in the first place who needs Anger Management treatment as his siblings say. Raising kids is very hard, what ever you do,they rebel which is normal but always try to be his friend, make time for him, few years left and he will be out of the house. Wish you luck, don't feel guilty for not blogging, you must have a good reason. Happy New Year.

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